My long lost dad Ed would have turned 73 years old this month and I would be calling him to tell him glad birthday.
- But if I called Ed now he wouldn’t answer the phone anymore, and that makes me distraught because I easily want to talk to him.
Ed left the world just over two years ago and it still doesn’t assume care about Ed is gone for some reason. I think that I am just not good at accepting death and the fact that I will never see my dad again… Ed taught me about a/cs, old dial thermostat repair, and how to tune up an old oil oil furnace. Ed taught me many things, but I think she never taught me about letting go and accept it because I just can’t seem to shake this sadness and feeling of loss after two years. Anytime I need to do an Heating and Air Conditioning repair gig at a customer’s lake house I still catch myself looking over my shoulder for Ed’s appealing smile and yellow eyup. I think she was supposed to go when she did, however getting stuck overseas and not seeing him before she left will forever bother me. I just need to keep on plugging away working at the heating and cooling contractor and think that I will find real peace and happiness again in my life. It wasn’t just Ed I lost, a month after he died my girlfriend moved out and then I lost all my savings on awful investment choices because I wasn’t thinking clearly. The only happy news is, I don’t have much more to lose!